Thursday, September 16, 2010

Working Girl

I got a job!

Finally, after the last year and a half of being overworked, underpaid, and just plain out of a job I finally got a real one.

I'm working at the promotions company I was a spokes model for since June of '09. Both of my bosses quit in the matter of a few weeks. I put in my resume and came out with one of the positions!

I work in Greentree. My hours are 10-6, Monday through Friday. My title is Program Manager and I basically do payroll, scheduling, and other administrative tasks for the spokes models.

Today is day 3 of my first week, but I'm in the office alone for now. The new hire and our trainer will be coming in next Monday, so then the real work starts. I'm just kind of bumming around, organizing the office and taking calls from my superiors in Baltimore until then.

This is truly the greatest thing to happen to me in the past year. Now, all I need is to get healthy to have a little bit of peace in my life.

It's funny though. There really always is the next thing. High school was really the last time I enjoyed the here and now and wasn't looking forward to the next big change. I was excited for college and moving on, but loved each day I had in high school, particularly my Junior and Senior years. From undergrad onward it's just always been a constant longing for the next step, or just for the current struggle to be over. I remember being so thrilled at the end of graduate school, only to be met with illness and unemployment. Now, here I am with a real job and on the brink of being cured, but I can't help but ask the question, "What's next?" What new hurdle will there be to overcome? Hopefully things will just calm down for a little while. I can work and focus and enjoy the present for what it is. But, the greater accomplishment would be to be able to feel like that even if another hurdle presents itself...

I know that life is a journey, but I've never been much of a process oriented person. I'd like a little destination now, please.